The collision of your kiss
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Wednesday, August 16, 2006

This morning I shed my first tears of anger.

I guess my body simply wasn't big enough to swallow that surge of frustruation, nor deep enough to drown it. So it had to come out in the form of tears.

The Chinese 'O' level results dropped and you are not pleased about it. That I can understand. What I don't get is why you have to say that the students who did not achieve a distinction slacked too much? To date, it's one of the biggest insults I've ever got. And it stung all the more because you said it. I am a person who is slow when it comes to Chinese. Last year, I kept failing my Chinese exams. At one point, I wanted to ditch Chinese altogether. Then Laoshi came into my life and rekindled my interest in Chinese. Not to mention the will to work harder. My grades improved, I could pass Chinese and I begin to enjoy Chinese lessons. For the 'O' levels, I got a C5. Not the B I was hoping for but I was satisfied I made a quantum leap from last year's D. And that I had given the Chineses exams my best shot.

When you said the people who had contributed to the decrease of Chinese 'O' level distinctions had too little discipline, I wanted to scream. This year's format is different, what do you expect? While there may have been students who slacked there was also quite a number who didn't. I was one. So why did you have to assume all who did not get distinctions were not hardworking? Does that mean my worth is determined by the results I get?

I used to have deep respect for you. I don't know about now; just that I am extremely disappointed that had to come from you.


And I will always think of you as the sun*